well xmas is almost upon us, and i am struggling with my weight lost journey, i am putting weight on, cos this time of year aint good when u lose ur job n struggling, so i eat anything i can get my hands on. i have been applying for jobs but no such luck, i have entered competions of the telly, but nothing, so i feel i am unlucky in everything.
i dont want xmas in my home this year cos i cant get my gorgeous fiance james all the things i wanted to get him, and vice versa. we have been together for nine and a half years now and taken what life throws at us, and yes we have had some very hard times, but had some good times but always stood by each other no matter what.
my life wasnt happy before i met james, my ex husband beat the crap out of me day in and day out, took my money, made me feel it was my fault not his. then one day i asked him why the beatings, he repiled cos i was pretty and didnt trust anyone with me. even thou he called me mrs blobby and no one would love me like he does. guess he was wrong, i found my perfect man in james.
even thou i am still struggling with my demons and my weight i know will lose my weight and believe in myself.
2013 is my year to find a new job, get myself out of debt, and be a size 10 to 12. i am determinded.
thank you everyone for reading my blogs.
hope you all have a great xmas and a happy new year
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